{"id":222,"date":"2022-02-12T02:30:01","date_gmt":"2022-02-12T00:30:01","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/razvangrigorescu.com\/blog\/?p=222"},"modified":"2022-02-12T02:30:01","modified_gmt":"2022-02-12T00:30:01","slug":"trage-ma-de-snur-te-rog","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/razvangrigorescu.com\/blog\/trage-ma-de-snur-te-rog\/","title":{"rendered":"trage-m\u0103 de \u0219nur, te rog."},"content":{"rendered":"

\u201cNoi luasem pomul, el trebuia s\u0103 vin\u0103 cu cadourile.\u201d<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n

\u0218tiu prea bine \u00eenceputul \u0103sta de poveste.<\/em><\/p>\n

E 3:47 \u0219i e\u0219ti \u00een pat de cel pu\u021bin 2 ore, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 adormi. \u0218tii c\u0103 oboseala o s\u0103 o resim\u021bi din plin \u0219i, totu\u0219i, nu reu\u0219e\u0219ti.
\nRespiri cu greutate; inspiri-3-4-5, expiri-3-4-5; e un aer \u00eemb\u00e2csit \u00een camer\u0103, n-ai aerisit de cel pu\u021bin o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103.
\nTe irit\u0103 perna c\u0103 s-a \u00eenc\u0103lzit pe o parte, dar ezi\u021bi s\u0103 te mi\u0219ti oric\u00e2t de pu\u021bin, poate-poate se \u00eent\u00e2mpl\u0103 s\u0103 a\u021bipe\u0219ti.
\nDe\u0219i nu vrei, sim\u021bi orice b\u0103taie a inimii; \u00eencepi s\u0103 le numeri, vrei s\u0103 te asiguri c\u0103-\u021bi calmezi ritmul cardiac, vrei s\u0103 dormi.
\nSim\u021bi c\u0103 ai nevoie de ajutor.<\/p>\n

\u00cemi imaginez deseori ce-ar fi \u00eensemnat, pentru s\u0103n\u0103tatea mea emo\u021bional\u0103, s\u0103 v\u0103<\/strong> fi cunoscut; s\u0103 te<\/strong><\/span> fi cunoscut. Cum ai fost ca tat\u0103, ca so\u021b? Aud pove\u0219ti cu tine<\/strong><\/span>, dar niciodat\u0103 despre tine<\/strong><\/span>. Simt cum lipse\u0219te din mine o parte din educa\u021bia pe care le-ai oferit-o lor<\/span>, dar care nu a ajuns la mine.<\/em><\/p>\n

E 15:47 \u0219i stai \u00een fa\u021ba laptopului de la munc\u0103, pe acela\u0219i scaun primit de la ei, deja de peste un an \u0219i jum\u0103tate.
\n\u0218tii orele nedormite de asear\u0103? Asta e ora la care le sim\u021bi lipsa.
\nAi de completat vreo dou\u0103 documente cu date, \u00eens\u0103 \u021bi se \u00eenchid ochii \u00een timp de tastezi.
\nRespiri cu greutate; inspiri-3-4-5, expiri-3-4-5; e un aer \u00eemb\u00e2csit \u00een camer\u0103, n-ai aerisit de cel pu\u021bin o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103.
\nDe\u0219i nu vrei, sim\u021bi orice b\u0103taie a inimii; \u00eencepi s\u0103 le numeri, vrei s\u0103 te asiguri c\u0103-\u021bi calmezi ritmul cardiac.
\nSim\u021bi o amor\u021beal\u0103 \u00een t\u0103lpi; te ridici s\u0103 faci c\u00e2\u021biva pa\u0219i \u00een aceea\u0219i camer\u0103 \u00een care e\u0219ti \u201c\u00eenchis\u201d deja de peste un an \u0219i jum\u0103tate.
\nSim\u021bi c\u0103 ai nevoie de ajutor.<\/p>\n

Cu fiecare poveste auzit\u0103, singurul lucru de care sunt sigur este c\u0103 el<\/span> a r\u0103mas cu o traum\u0103 nerezolvat\u0103; cel mai fric\u0103 \u00eemi este c\u0103 mi-a transmis-o \u0219i mie; oare dac\u0103 mai erai, c\u00e2t de mult s-ar fi schimbat? C\u00e2t de mult m-a\u0219 fi schimbat?<\/em><\/p>\n

E 21:47 \u0219i stai \u00een fa\u021ba PC-ului personal, pe acela\u0219i scaun primit de la munc\u0103.
\nContemplezi ideea s\u0103 scrii ceva nou; sim\u021bi \u00een acela\u0219i timp nevoia de exteriorizare, dar \u0219i blocaj mental c\u00e2nd vine vorba de subiect.<\/p>\n

C\u00e2ndva l\u0103tram la lun\u0103. Acum doar \u00eencerc s\u0103 adorm sub clarul ei.<\/em><\/p>\n

Vrei calitate, dar nu-\u021bi g\u0103se\u0219ti cuvintele. Vrei s\u0103 fii \u201c\u00eempopo\u021bonat\u201d, dar aluneci \u00een acelea\u0219i cli\u0219ee pe care le-ai mai folosit.<\/p>\n

L\u0103tratul mi s-a transformat \u00een sc\u00e2ncet.<\/em><\/p>\n

De\u0219i nu vrei, sim\u021bi orice b\u0103taie a inimii; \u00eencepi s\u0103 le numeri, vrei s\u0103 te asiguri c\u0103-\u021bi calmezi ritmul cardiac.<\/p>\n

Sc\u00e2ncet de oboseal\u0103, sc\u00e2ncet de fric\u0103, sc\u00e2ncet de abandon, sc\u00e2ncet de singur\u0103tate.<\/em><\/p>\n

Respiri cu greutate; inspiri-3-4-5, expiri-3-4-5; e un aer \u00eemb\u00e2csit \u00een camer\u0103, de\u0219i aerisit pentru prima oar\u0103 \u00eentr-o s\u0103pt\u0103m\u00e2n\u0103. Sim\u021bi c\u0103…<\/p>\n

… am nevoie de ajutor.<\/em><\/p>\n

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“It’s like poetry, it rhymes.”\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>– George Lucas despre storytelling \u00een seria Star Wars<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u201cNoi luasem pomul, el trebuia s\u0103 vin\u0103 cu cadourile.\u201d \u0218tiu prea bine \u00eenceputul \u0103sta de poveste. E 3:47 \u0219i e\u0219ti \u00een pat de cel pu\u021bin 2 ore, \u00eencerc\u00e2nd s\u0103 adormi. \u0218tii c\u0103 oboseala o s\u0103 o resim\u021bi din plin \u0219i, totu\u0219i, nu reu\u0219e\u0219ti. Respiri cu greutate; inspiri-3-4-5, expiri-3-4-5; e un aer \u00eemb\u00e2csit \u00een camer\u0103, n-ai … Continue reading trage-m\u0103 de \u0219nur, te rog.<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-222","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/razvangrigorescu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/222","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/razvangrigorescu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/razvangrigorescu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/razvangrigorescu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/razvangrigorescu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=222"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/razvangrigorescu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/222\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/razvangrigorescu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=222"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/razvangrigorescu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=222"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/razvangrigorescu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=222"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}